I've got a ton of thoughts swirling in my head these days, and as always the people, places and things in my life continue to bring my attention to how very much the universe is indeed conspiring in our favor and...how very powerful the act of setting an intention is.
The challenge here being is that "when something happens" we automatically create a judgement about it. Good or bad, positive or negative, it seems our minds are hard wired to go one way or the other. It's black or white, right or wrong and whatever side you find yourself on is entirely dependant of how your perceive what is happening. And, if you happen to further categorize this into loss or gain, and not both in equal measure you'll be sure to find yourself stuck on either end of those extremes. Totally polarized.
And then what? Where do we go from there?
Two options, we can stay stuck and let the effects of the stress, worry and resentments effect our physiology. We can be victims. Resign ourselves to being at the effect of others and "life" or make the choice to step up, stand up and commit to a new way of being. To choose how we perceive an event or experience. We can rise into possibility and opportunity and be in a state of balance all at the same time. Personally, I'd like the second option please.
Early in 2014, "something happened". There's no pretty way of saying it, it brought me to my knees (that being a gross understatement). I've faced some big challenges through the years(we all have, I'm sure) and I think I have done a pretty good job at navigating through them with some degree of grace and self-awareness(well, for the most part anyway). I thought that I had this part of my life sorted out, that something like this would not happen to me a
second, third time. Well, I was wrong. So once again another invitation for me to wake the hell up! (If you don't want to wake up on the first try, life will keep knocking!). The details are rather juicy, and I think it's best I save those for another time, as I'm not to sure I'm ready to unload that all right here and now. Besides, I'm thinking it could be a possible best seller in the making!
Desperate to find solace I found myself in a course called "The Breakthrough Experience®", which essentially totally transformed the way I perceive the people and things in my world. After the course ended I subsequently found myself in a private consultation with Dr. John Demartini with the intent of creating more clarity in my life and my relationship. I'll never forget what he said to me during that consultation. Those words led to start taking steps and creating an intention to bring into balance the areas of my life that I had paid little or no attention to. Those areas being the ones that had me completely dependant on another human being.
As the weekend came to an end I felt a "pull", I had direction and clarity, for the first time in years I felt like I had the desire to change things(an intent, if you will). Maybe it was the degree of certainty in which the message was delivered to me, maybe it was divine timing or maybe I was just simply ready. As they say, "when the student is ready the teacher will appear".
So, I made a very conscious commitment to myself to become educated about finances, to further my education and to find a way that I could create a career for myself that was true to what was in alignment with what I value most. I set an intention of self reliance, to be in control of my own life and to know that if I was going to be in a relationship with someone it was not going to be because they fulfilled a "need".
Guess what happened? Through a series of strange events that I affectionately refer to as "shit show round 2", everything I asked for is coming to fruition. Fancy that! I am on my own, responsible for myself, learning the ropes, educating myself more everyday about marketing, joint ventures, managing money and creating a revenue stream that is based on the things that light me up inside! I am in such a different place and mind set than I was just one year ago, and I have all those "shit shows" to thank for that! LOL
I have found myself in a place where I don't have "that person" to rely on. Yes, I have my moments, some days I'm scared as hell, this is totally unchartered territory for me. I had been "looked after" for my entire life. But, there is a certain beautiful freedom and excitement about this all and out of necessity, I have had to seriously get my ass in gear. Talk about a crash course in personal empowerment!
Yes, I could sit here and feel sorry for myself as to how horribly certain things have unfolded. No amount of worry, anger or stress is going to change anything, that's for darn sure!. In fact, all of these challenges I am facing have all brought me closer to realizing how powerful I truly am, it's been an invitation for me to reclaim my essence.
The short version of this is, I asked and I received. We cannot control the way in which our learning comes, at some point we have to have faith that things are unfolding exactly as they are meant to for our highest good. I've felt my faith in that challenged at a few points in this journey, that's normal I suppose and very human. But amidst it all, there is something there, a feeling that I am exactly where I need to be. The people, the experiences, synchronous and moving me closer to fulfilling my mission. For that I am so completely and totally grateful.
Can you recall a time in your life that you asked for something, and how it showed up in your life was not at all what you expected? Can you see now, despite the trials and tribulations that there was perfection in the way it all worked out? I'd love to hear your comments!